Bad things happen to good people
>> Thursday, February 19, 2009
Well I'm beginning to think the Mayan's or Aztec's or whoever really had something with this whole world ending in 2012 thing...so far 2009 is going down the toilet for like everyone I know.
My poor friend Kayla last her cat two weekends ago and her mom just this week. The wake is tomorrow and even though wakes and viewings of bodies freak me out a little bit I'm going to go for her because I want her to know I'm here if she needs anything. Who would have thought we'd both lose a parent within a month of each other...its absolutely insane.
I'm convinced that Murphy's Law and the old adage of "when it rains it pours" are absolutely true.
Let's recap my world for the past few months to investigate this claim.
-Fall: my dad's health begins to decline dramatically, we are afraid it is Alzheimer's...we receive news that my uncle has an aggressive stage 5 prostate cancer that has metastasized (aka spread to his bones).
-Winter: My dad is diagnosed with probable Transmissible Spongiform Encepholopathy, dies less them a month later. My brother's step son in law is shot and spends the same night in the emergency room my dad did (though thankfully Robert, the son in law, lived). Just before my dad's memorial service my uncle gets some type of virus or infection and has to go to the emergency room with a high fever...thankfully he's able to come for the service. My best friend is apparently upset with me and sends me a list a things she doesn't like about me and though I responded I haven't heard from her sense so I suppose we've "broken up"? I find out about Kayla's mom's diagnosis. Northern Arkansas has a terrible ice storm and many are without power for a week (or in some cases weeks)...this include my grandma's house and my hometown, which complicated burial arrangements. My car battery dies and my mom's glasses break (both small but when part of the bigger picture they certainly feel bigger then they are). Kayla's cat and then a couple weeks later her mom die.
I'm actually pretty sure there are more but those are the events freshest in my mind.
Of course this isn't to say some good things haven't happened. But I think sometimes its harder to appreciate those good moments in the midst of tragedy. Of course Pete Wentz says it best in his lyrics for I Don't Care , "The best of us can find happiness in misery." I know the situation is a little different in the song, but that has been my mantra for the past few months. Although things seem to be going to hell in a handbasket...I need to step back and realize the things that make me happy and that I am thankful for.
I sound pretty whiney which isn't good :/
So I'll end here with saying how much my heart goes out to Kayla. What I went through/am going through is tough....but I know its got to be so much harder on her because first off its her mom so that difficult by itself...but on top of that I know there have been strained relations between her and her dad and some extended family and she's an only child so she has no siblings to lean on. So I hope that her fiance and his family are there to support her and help her through this. I can fathom losing my mother...especially if she might as well be the only parent I had. However, I know how horrible cancer is and so I am thankful that although it is terrible to lose a parent prematurely...at least she didnt have to watch that horrible disease hold on to her mom for too long. It sounds crass but in some situations sooner is better because it means less suffering.
What a depressing day..and now I have to concentrate on homework? *sigh* if only life could be put on hold once in a while.
0 comments:
Post a Comment